Sunday night randoms

Tomorrow is Monday already.

I feel guilty for saying this, but the daily hectic routine gets exhausting and I'm not ready to start again tomorrow. I feel like I could use a couple glasses of wine (or hell, just make it a bottle), a bed, and several hours of uninterrupted sleep.

This weekend was kind of disappointing. Big Country didn't get back until Saturday night at 8pm. He was worn out from the drive and the irresponsible, dishonest, childish behavior of his 30 yr old brother. I would explain, but I shouldn't even be amazed anymore at how stupid my brother-in-law is and therefore, I don't feel like rehashing. I'd rather just accept it as brother-in-law's "norm" and move on.

Today was chilly, rainy, and pretty dreary. We stayed inside all day. My sister-in-law (my husbands sis) cancelled on me twice today. We made plans to do lunch and go shopping. She cancelled. Then she wanted to come over tonight so I could do something to her hair... and she cancelled. Come to find out- she was bullshitin me all day. I'm starting to feel worn out by people and their bullshit. That sounds shitty, but that's how I feel so I'm gonna say it. I'm sick of people. I get so worked up and angry inside over things people do- none of which I can change, and I know I can't. There are so many people I wish I could speak my mind to, but- it wouldn't matter or make a difference. I've been working on this "internal" problem of letting go. I am slowly getting better, but it's hard to let things ride sometimes.

I'm not ready for the hustle and bustle of tomorrow. I feel like all I do since I've become a Mom is run around and he hasn't even started crawling, walking, or playing sports.

Have a good week.

Black Friday nothings

I was blessed to have to work on this lovely Black Friday. I try saying it that way so I don't feel quite as quilty for complaining that I have to work when so many don't have jobs. Honestly, I would have loved to have the day off and maybe hit up a few good sales. Today is not only Black Friday, but also month end at work- which is always a fantastic time. I'm being sarcastic of course.

Big country is on the road and won't be back until late tonight or early in the morning. Mason's presence is being requested at Grandma & Grandpa's... so I am planning on chillin. I think Melon is coming over to hang out for a while. There's no tellin what we'll get into.

Thanksgiving was nice. All of the food turned out great and both of our families mingled well. I was pretty exhausted by the end of the afternoon.

Mason is so fascinated with lights and I can't wait to get the Christmas tree up! I am going to load the tree up with so many lights that Mason is going to be mesmerized! Christmas is my favorite time of the year and I want to make it special for Mason. I ended up cancelling the appt to get family pics taken tomorrow. A couple days ago I started getting a couple lovely blemishes on my chin... I hardly ever get pimples! So, I am going to call and reschedule for another day.

That's enough rambling for now... have a good weekend.

*Family Christmas pics*

I keep talking about Mason's Christmas pics on Saturday. His outfit is really cute. Here are the slippers he is wearing. He gets one outfit change and we are planning on a red plaid shirt and jeans or denim overalls. I hope all goes well with this!

Holly suggested I post for advice... so if anyone has any ideas or tips on pictures or clothing- I'm open to hearing them!

Fast food mumbo jumbo

Since I had Mason, I have been trying to make better eating choices to loose some weight. I have been following Weight Watchers. I have been on it for a couple months and have made pretty good progress so far. Unfortunately, there are those times when your eating choices end up being fast food restraunts. This is what makes WW beneficial. So, sometimes when I'm not in the mood for salad, I'll get just a chicken sandwich and large fountain pop (thank you Lord for fountain pops). I have cut french fries out of my fast food stops all together. Why is it that if you order just a sandwich and a large drink it costs $1-$1.50 more than getting the value meal? I'm saving them wasted french fries AND I'm trying to be a healthier person. Isn't that beneficial for both sides? If you're not getting the french fries, it should cost less- not more. So I guess now the thing to do is get french fries in the value meal and throw them away. I just resent having to pay more when I'm actually saving them the cost of french fries.

Anyway, my chicken sandwich and large drink that cost $6.50 was good.

I'm rambling.

This is just one of those quirky things that gets on my nerves. I think we all have those!

Peace out.

Remembering you Grandpa

Yesterday marked the 8 yr anniversary of my Grandpa Sutton's passing. I just wanted to take a moment and remember what a remarkable man he was. He passed away a few weeks shy of his 95th bday. He was a farmer his entire life and was devoted to the Lord. He and my Grandma were married for 72 yrs! What an accomplishment. I remember how big Grandpa's hands were. He always wore Rockport shoes and he was as STUBBORN as they come. That's probably what kept him young for all those years. Grandpa had a heart of gold. I remember him always wearing his plaid pants, different colored plaid shirt, suspenders, and a fishing hat (so cute). He bought his first motorcycle when he was in his 80's. Grandpa took a farm, that was nearly worthless (many years ago when he and grandma bought as a young couple) and turned it into quite an operation. There are 90+ grandchildren all together. My brother and I were the youngerst of the grandchildren (there are many more great and great great grandkids). So its neat to hear my aunts and uncles, and older cousins talk about memories on the farm. The farm was sold shortly before I was born- so my brother and I were never a part of those memories. Nonetheless, I still enjoy hearing all the "farm stories" and I have my own memories of my Grandparents. I am proud of my family roots.

Grandpa, I love you and miss you and I am thankful for your life.

I wish I had a pic to share, but I don't this time.

Maybe more later...

~final thoughts for the day~

What a hectic night. I feel like all I have done is rush around since I got off work. Mason and I got a lot done this evening to get ready for Tgiving at our house. See, Big Country is a repo man. He generally works nights, but he had a lot of accounts to run tonight... so he's been at work all night. Mason and I ran some errands tonight, and now I am beat. I feel like our evening was very productive- so that is a good feeling.

I am really excited about this pumpkin roll that I am making tomorrow night. I've never made anything like this. It sounds so good. We are going to have so much food for Tgiving. Big Country is deep frying a turkey and I am doing a cola basted ham (thank you Paula Deen). Then, we're having all the fixins': dressing, mashed potatoes & gravy, beef & noodles, green beans, greens, corn casserole, rolls... and I'm sure there will be some "surprise" dishes that people bring. I can already tell that my stomach isn't going to be big enough. LOL, I just pray that our families get along and everyone enjoys themself.

That's it for now. I'm running out of juice... night.

Friends I adore.

I have made many friends throughout my life- in school, places i worked, etc. Some friends pass through my life and eventually move on- and I believe those friends were put in my life for a reason. I am so very thankful for my friends that I have grown so close to- that have always and will always be here for me. My best friend and I have been inseparable since 7th grade. She is such a beautiful, honest, loyal, loving person. Melon and I have always been there for each other and I believe we will always have a strong friendship. We have weathered so many storms together. After high school, we both married our high school sweethearts of 5+yrs. Melon and I were both engaged within 6 mo of each other and married within 6 mo of each other. We both bought houses in the same town with our husbands. After roughly a year, Melon found out that her husband was cheating on her. They separated. 6 mo later I found out my husband was cheating on me. We were both divorced at roughly the same time. We both ended up completely starting over. After my divorce, I got a small one bedroom apt and had a blast spending it focused on myself and my friends. Melon stayed with me so many times and we had some very memorable moments!!! You will be hearing a lot about Melon and our adventures. She is my partner in crime!! Melon is the most loyal friend I will ever have. I could commit the most haneous crime and Melon will still be there for me. I never want to let her down.


I have been blessed with another close friend- Bugs. Some of you may already know her since she also blogs. Bugs and I became friends a couple years ago, but we connect really well and we have had some amazing talks. We used to get together for weekly "round table dicussions" at Bugs's kitchen table. It consisted of a few other girls and usually snacks, drinks, other fun stuff and side busting laughs that went on for hours and sometimes days. We've even found ourselves sitting in her closet/pantry talking and giggling. It's not just fun we have, but we've had many heart-to-heart talks and have pulled each other out of some dark moments. We look out for each other and I love that about our friendship.


Of all the friends that have walked in and out of my life- my Bugs & my Melon will always be my chicas!


(sigh)... is it time to go yet? I have to much to do tonight and I'm ready to get out of this place!

Oh, I wanted to share this picture of Mason with you all. I absoultely love it and it warms my heart. He is getting so fun!


We are having Christmas pics taken on Saturday and I am really looking forward to it. I can't wait to catch some of Mason's precious smiles. He responds so much to his daddy!

Turning in

Today has felt like a long day. I just put Mason down for the night and now I am going to enjoy a little bit of Mommy time before I go to bed. I've been noticing that all the stores are playing Christmas music. I have such mixed feelings about this Christmas. it will be bittersweet. my grandpa passed away on june 9th. anyone that knew him was truely blessed. he and my grandma were married for 63 yrs. i will definately be thinking of him during the holidays. we are trying to make new family traditions this year since grandpa is gone. at the same time i am excited b/cuz it is Mason's first thanksgiving and christmas. i want to enjoy it.

i spent some time yesterday with my grandma. she lives 1 1/2 hrs away. it feels so strange to be with her and grandpa not be there. it feels weird to go to grandma's house and there sits grandpas chair- empty. over the last few years, as grandpa would face various medical issues, he always promised me that he was going to hang around to see his great grandchildren. last mid december i found out i was pregnant with mason. we told our family at christmas. this past june grandpa faced some major medical issues. he was on complete life support and after many many hours of surgery to try to fix him- he just wasn't going to improve. we had to make the decision to stop his life support. he passed immediately. the last thing he tried to tell us- as he barely hung on- was i love you. i was 6 mo pregnant. he missed his first great grandchild by 2 mo. i have spent every christmas of my entire life with my grandpa and like many other things- there will be a hole in christmas this year. i dont mean to sound so depressing. its just that every christmas song i have heard so far has sparked a memory of my grandpa. i miss him with every fiber of my being. he was such a loving man that did right by everyone. he was truely an angel on earth.

I'm da bomb, like tick-tick.

Holly has passed the Superior Scribbler Award onto me.

The rules of the award are as follows:
1. Post the award on your blog.
2. Link me for giving it to you.
3. Link the originating post here.
4. Pass the award on to five more deserving people.
5. Post these rules for your recipients.

I am only picking 3, since I am new to this!

1. Liana

2. Jenny

3. Gwen

the only thing i like about my job...

... is taking a "drive thru" break with Bugs. We come up with the oddest things and laugh..... for days about it. We've learned to keep these moments between us b/cuz if we talk about them at work..... pretty soon its worn out by nonetheless... our boss.Yes. It's ridiculous.

Other than that, I hate where I work, but I know that right now I am lucky to have a job. So, that kind of makes me feel guilty for hating my job. Bugs has been here a lot longer than I have and she is way underpaid for as sharp and experienced as she is. This company could not function if it weren't for the admin team. Yet we are underpaid and unappreciated. I can't wait to finish school and get a good writing job and contribute more to my household.

Then I'll be permanently bidding this place FAREWELL.

Peace.

Introducing our family

I wanted to introduce you all to my family.

This is Big Country.

This is our son Mason. He was born 4 weeks premature on Aug. 2, 2008.

This is Gus. He is the youngest of our Jack Russells. He is a year-and-a-half old and is the son of Jack & Bella- our other two JRT. Gus is deaf and is the neatest dog ever. He is the best sleeper in the world and is sooo playful and happy. We also call him "shredder" since he loves to shred things up.

This is Jack & Bella.

Jack is infatuated with the laser light, aerosol cans, flashlights, and of course- Big Country. He is a very faithful steed to Big Country.

We rescued Bella from a tree in 2006. It was mid July and very hot and humid. She was a puppy and her owners kept her chained to a tree 24/7. Big Country went to repo the owners car and took the dog a couple days later. It took a long time for Bella to learn to trust us, but after having 2 litters of puppies with Jack- she really started to trust us. We call her- Bella "the snuggler."

Busy holiday week

Well, this Thursday is Thanksgiving, which I happen to be hosting at my house. Both sides of our family are coming- that should be intersting. Anyway, we have so much to do this week and Mason has Christmas pics on Saturday and I still need to find him a red shirt to wear under his outfit. I am trying to keep my stress level low so that I can enjoy Turkey Day. I am actually pretty excited about having everyone over and doing the cooking. I am planning on making quite a feast!

How it started...

I am a virgin blogger. I have done it a couple times on myspace, but I have to admit it feels a little strange. I'm sure I will get used to it. So here goes...

I am 29 yrs old. I was born and raised in a small town north of Dayton Ohio. I have a younger brother who is 27 and two parents who are still married after 37 yrs. I played soccer as a child well into my teenage years, but I quit playing my junior year of high school. I got married when I was 21 yrs told to my high school sweetheart. We were married for just under a year and a half and then went out separate ways. I lived on my own for a year or so in a small one bedroom apt. Just me, my dog, my cat, and some of the greatest friends I could've asked for. I spent a year and a half focused on just ME and MY FRIENDS. I wasn't trying to meet anyone (and thats when "they" say it usually happens)... I met someone. I was very unattached when we first met and I tried to keep it that way for as long as I could. Although, sometimes I believe there is a different plan for us. That was almost 5 yrs ago. Now, we are married and just had our first baby, Mason. My husband, (who I will refer to as "big country"), has a 15 yr old daughter that lives in FL and a 13 yr old son that lives in TN. There are many sensitive issues that surround both of these children, but I don't want to get into it now. Nonetheless, big country and I are happy, in love, and enjoy every minute we spend together and with our Mason.

As I am writing this, my mind is flooding with all kinds of stuff I want to talk about! A little birdy told me this would be addicting....