Sunday night randoms

Tomorrow is Monday already.

I feel guilty for saying this, but the daily hectic routine gets exhausting and I'm not ready to start again tomorrow. I feel like I could use a couple glasses of wine (or hell, just make it a bottle), a bed, and several hours of uninterrupted sleep.

This weekend was kind of disappointing. Big Country didn't get back until Saturday night at 8pm. He was worn out from the drive and the irresponsible, dishonest, childish behavior of his 30 yr old brother. I would explain, but I shouldn't even be amazed anymore at how stupid my brother-in-law is and therefore, I don't feel like rehashing. I'd rather just accept it as brother-in-law's "norm" and move on.

Today was chilly, rainy, and pretty dreary. We stayed inside all day. My sister-in-law (my husbands sis) cancelled on me twice today. We made plans to do lunch and go shopping. She cancelled. Then she wanted to come over tonight so I could do something to her hair... and she cancelled. Come to find out- she was bullshitin me all day. I'm starting to feel worn out by people and their bullshit. That sounds shitty, but that's how I feel so I'm gonna say it. I'm sick of people. I get so worked up and angry inside over things people do- none of which I can change, and I know I can't. There are so many people I wish I could speak my mind to, but- it wouldn't matter or make a difference. I've been working on this "internal" problem of letting go. I am slowly getting better, but it's hard to let things ride sometimes.

I'm not ready for the hustle and bustle of tomorrow. I feel like all I do since I've become a Mom is run around and he hasn't even started crawling, walking, or playing sports.

Have a good week.